Thursday, September 20, 2007
10:34 PM
now thinking back to my primary school days i didn't have many friends. not because my classmates didn't want to talk to me, its more of me not seeing the point in making so many friends, or rather talking to people i don't know. i just DON'T see the point. even until now i won't go up to someone and start a conversation. i don't know why. i can guarantee 99% of my friends came up and talked to me first. i don't know why am i like this. tsk.
in secondary school as well. i may have aquaintances, but only a handful of friends that i talk to. i just don't see the point in making so many friends. for me, just having a few close friends you can share your thoughts and feelings with is better than having the world's population as your friends but not one close one whom you really trust. am i not right? i just need yiwen and jasmine. seriously if you were to ask me. i still will enjoy my secondary school life. i dont know why, but i am like that. i feel that if you have many friends, and they go "omg i miss you." , "meet up soon" blah blah blah all that crap thats super fake. because they cannot ALL miss you. period. unless you saved them all from mortal peril that they have no choice but to say all this crap to you.
i remember in sec 1. on the first day of school. yiwen came up to me and talked to me. she irritated the hell out of me. :D and jasmine. we met in council, sec 2. doing duty together. :)
the frieds were godsent, and i never regretted knowing them. :)i'm not neglecting their friendship, and i DO cherish each and every one of them. but i'm just saying even if i only had yiwen and jasmine as friends i will still do fine. so please do not think i do not treasure the frieds.
also b and gang. even if you were to count brothers and the frieds in my number of friends whom i actually talk to is very minimal, compared to the rest who seem to know every single person who walks past them in school.
i dont need to be popular. i dont need so many friends. just a couple i can trust. i told b this. and he said cannot like that. people need friends. i don't need that many to show i'm popular. i can be popular among yiwen and jasmine. and not forgetting the brothers of course.
in poly its the same. i really thank god for b. i talk to him in school during the first few days. and ah yi. i think my poly friends talk to b more than they talk to me. i just have no topics to talk to them about.
i think i'm weird. but its not my fault. will try to change.
sorry to my 3 or less readers. super random post. just got me thinking.
i am rewatching meteor garden1 (liu xing hua yuan) because the last time i watched it was 3 years ago. i cannot stand how shan cai is playing hard to get. if it was me i will stick myself to dao ming si - literally. by using superglue or something. he is so hott and rich can. (i think you are too b. (:)
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