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Sunday, January 20, 2008

6:15 AM

alot of things happened these days. alot of sad things.

to a brave friend:
you've been so brave, we're all proud. pls know we'll all be here. kudos to you.

i've been thinking alot lately. the news came as a complete shock to me, to everyone. it made me realise how lucky i am to be having my family here with me, bestie, wonderful people around me. it's really ironic how we all need a tragedy to jolt us out if our dreamland.

we all choose to live in denial when thinking about this kind of situations. who knows, maybe we'll lose someone we treasure tmr. touch wood, but seriously who is to say it wont happen?

it made me realise how fragile life is. how cruel the big guy can be.

it got me thinking. if i were to be stricken with some form of disease now, i want my remaining days to be meaningful, do the million things i want to do.

i want to travel.
i want to spend hours at the beach just looking at the sky.
i want to spend time with my family.

most importantly,
i want to dance. i thought long abd hard, and surprisingly even to myself, the most important thing i want to do in life is dance. i thought this passion had faded long ago. but no.

i told yiwen and J that if a ever have an incurable disease, i would refuse any form of treatment. because i want to die pretty, and happy.

here is the conversation with J that melted my heart.

Miss Sherie     says:
if i ever get some terminal disease or anything tt cannot be cured like cancer

Miss Sherie     says:
dont force me to seek treatment

Miss Sherie     says:
i wanto die pretty.

Miss Sherie     says:
ok
JS says:
but

JS says:
wad if their is a chance u can get well?

Miss Sherie     says:
chance only leh.

Miss Sherie     says:
wad if after all those treatments dont work

JS says:
i will leave it up to u to decide okay

JS says:
i jus wan u to be happy

Miss Sherie     says:
okay

Miss Sherie     says:
(:

JS says:
n i really dun wish to think about it

Miss Sherie     says:
touch wood.

JS says:
cos i love u too much

here's the conversation i had with yiwen, almost made me cry:

Miss Sherie     says:
actually.

Miss Sherie     says:
last moments..

Miss Sherie     says:
i want to dance.

yiwen says:
(:

yiwen says:
that's nice..

yiwen says:
jj and i can take turns right

Miss Sherie     says:
to do wad?

yiwen says:
dance la.

yiwen says:
tho i duno

Miss Sherie     says:
hahaha
Miss Sherie     says:
with me?

yiwen says:
but tv show just sway can alr

yiwen says:
ya

seriously, we all need to cherish our loved ones, else it becomes a regret.

I LOVE YOU DADDY,MUMMY,DIDI,J,AUNTY SATI,MAX,YIWEN,JASMINE,EDNALLY,FRIEDS,NATIONS,CONCERN CLUB,1A02,EXTENDED FAMILY.

sorry for the emo post. just needed to get this off my chest.

&icouldbeyourfavouritegirl

Thursday, January 3, 2008

11:35 PM

hellooooo. i know i have a dead blog. but i have to share this with you all.

on new year's eve we went to aunty sharen's house right, and jovyn and nat stayed over so they went with us as well. so we ended around 1 plus, and my grandma was at the temple in bishan so we decided to go and pick her and then send her home. it was already very late at night and i didn't know why she had to be in the temple so i asked around. okay, but first i have to tell you all who's in the car. my dad, mum,me,nat and jovyn.

ME: eh why so late mama(my grandma. we call her that) stil in the temple huh?

MUM: dunno.

JOVYN: dunno.

NAT(my cousin): AIYA SHE GO COUNTDOWN WHAT!

EVERYBODY: HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.

funny right. i think there was this monk from overseas who came to singapore and she went to listen to the session.

okay i am happy because this week has ben a hectic week: one presentation, 2 essays.

BUT IT'S OVER NOWWWWWWWW.

god bless me.

oh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATALIEEEEEEE!

byebye.

&icouldbeyourfavouritegirl